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I don't really know how to explain this. Since my wife and I separated and I moved into a flat in town, I see my two (8 and 11) every other weekend and one evening in the week. Which I know isn't nothing. But it feels like nothing. My oldest barely talks to me when they're here, just on their phone the whole time, and my youngest cries when they have to go back. I used to do the school run every single morning, that was our time, and now I'm just... not there. We haven't got a child arrangements order in place yet, it's all just informal at the moment, and I'm scared to rock the boat by pushing for more. Does it get easier or am I just grieving something that's gone?
